My Student-Teacher Relationship Reverie

gosh, i so miss my physics professor. weird. this may sound absurd but i think i am starting to fall for him. i miss his smile, his laugh, his jokes, his facial hair, his stories, and everything about him. i know he’s way older than me. but what do you care? i am the one obsessed here, not you. he may be silent at times, but that makes me even crave for him more.

when i first saw him, i thought of him as a weirdo and a lax person. but after days of listening to his lecture, i began to have this certain feeling that i would like him. and so i did. i almost fell on my knees when he treated us dinner. even more when he invited us to swim with him at a nearby resort. i always loved professors who show attachment to their students.

then again, he treated us dinner at kfc the other day. i made the atmosphere happy. i joked, i screamed, i laughed, i talked. i want to impress him, i want to make him smile. and i was victorious. he laughed, he joked back, and the rest will be forever a keepsake. it was a mutual feeling. haha.

i don’t know. but i think he’s not gay. well, i don’t care, i still like him.

you see, i don’t usually fall for guys who are straight. i always fall for someone with a little bit of femininity on their body. i love guys who have fats in the right places, facial hair, average looking, and short. he may not be short, but hey, i already fell for him. which changed my belief about statements with “-does not matter” at the end. “height does not matter”, and i’ll stick to that… until my feelings for my professor fade.

am i too assuming again? am i over-daydreaming? i hate this about myself. i always imagine my future with someone i am not even sure if HE likes me.

oh sir, be with me or i’ll die young (i’m only seventeen).

and for the record, i don’t “lust” him. and never will i fall for someone for the reason of lusting. and oh, this is my third time to fall for someone, and someone older.